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Inked In Rouge
Shallow system that tinkers within my soul playing its medley
Destroying the cords of my heart stripping away the animal I am
Feasting upon my own emotions swallowing the bitter pill
Of acceptance suffering the temptations to feed upon the voices
In my head taking actions to scrub away the hate within my skin
Negativity echo in my head taunting me into a deathly existence
I'm twisted and delicately sweet to my own demons pleasing them
With each cut I take embedding the wound showing my scars to the world
And you bleeding in my own story telling you my nightmare
Quite rare, the tone you seep upon thy reap you creep.
Sights flare within the mind of a once-valentine.
Call it mine, the columbine bled more truth than this blistered youth.
This blistered you...
On knees plead a heart bled
By what you said, "too soon to be dead."
Write our controversy, stout heresy mislead by dependence.
What blood could mend this broken pendant?
Pouted drops stupor stupendous.
Steel super suspended tempting
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my words feeding the negativity once again storing its feast upon my flesh absorbing the root of its maker pouring itself into my rib cage clutching within myself decomposing in the mist of it all belittling my soul with the spoils of doubt and defeat counting the days to my last breath with life so hard to see the bottle half full with jack daniels sinking within the darkness caressing away the threshold of my depression pulling away at my organ bursting into beautiful hues shedding red tears upon the floor splattering my true nature once again empty hollow human dragged around the pressure of staying true to her essence and state of a deranged loner fighting with the monster inside of herself destroying the bit of confidence she could ever spell with admiration laughing at the world while she's on edge waiting to taste the asphalt of the ground crushing her into rumble and seeing beauty in the breakdown   
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Mature content
Deisolation :iconasianblade:asianblade 11 1
Don't Speak
just a girl in a crowded world suffocating from negativity grasping for acceptance
just a girl wanting to be loved taking seriously on her downfall 
just a girl within a mask turning into a hollow hole
just a girl wanting to be beautiful in her own skin 
just a girl in her own jokes with no punchline for her emptyness 
just a girl following the guideline of her condition keep quiet and lie to yourself
just a girl crying over the same damn things 
just a girl to pussy to cut herself into two
just a girl to big to squeeze herself into a skinny jean dream
just a girl wanted a mother to hold her without judging her emotions
just a girl who needs to be sowed into a pattern of hope
just a girl wishing she could accept herself instead indulging her flaws 
just a girl denying that anyone gives a damn about a emo tool
just a girl eating away her existence
just a girl goi
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tears painting my face casting the shadows within the dark
pulling me under its claw's preyed upon death clutch
pounding fear bleeds within my skin and bones
my eyes draws within death scythe ripping away
the chapters of my life buried within my nightmare
why dry my tears but let another cry
impaired to my own emotions numb
to the cords of my existence silting 
my soul to reach upon your ears 
my downfall pleading for acceptance 
composing my cries into deathly tunes

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Soul Intimate
thorn swarming through my emotions swirling for the depths baring the ripening of my heart
shoving your exceptions of what you created spreading the venom in my bones  
brain washing my existence wiping away the dark arch of my canvas
breaking away the scar tissue of my feelings baring the structure of my soul
bleeding through the cracks of your hold confined to your dying will
prisoner in your shackles pleading to be free from the clutches of life
my mind is losing its will to fight within the let downs of your instruction
you force me with your commands feeding the foul spoils of your contradictions 
my spirit has vanished beneath the ground core resting into afterlife 
death a soothing soup healing my fears treating me with care
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Mature content
love crimes :iconasianblade:asianblade 15 0
castle walls
lower than low a princess upon her throne
her smile is force richer then most
poor within her own fairy tale

mirror mirror on the wall she pleads
everything i have are meaningless
my happiness fades with each kiss from a prince

mirror speaks these riches your born with
have spoiled your soul molding you into a
evil queen shredding away your confidence to the core
the crown upon you has crumbled to your feet

she roused with a uproar shattering her fate
cursing the mirror away with it's bitter truth
she gazed upon the pieces of herself 
she has fallen into the wrath of her own rotten apple

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Family Tree
What's a family tree when your the only one suffering
the empty cries of never being loved and growing roots
to be planted within a seed of love.

I've only grown weeds destroying the seed of my heart
down in a hole letting the sickness of the soil spoil my
thoughts wanting to pull and rip away the ugly of this tree.

A tumbled weed of depression a black rose of a hue
smearing ashes upon my family picking away at the 
dead leaves of my soul.

Rain pours upon my bark seeping down my stem
soaking up all the sadness growing me into wildflowers
for my family to ignore.

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my sadness pleads for hope but only shades of grey appear
my heartbeat strokes the melody of my soft tone cries  

my fears are seeping through my pores sweating away my soul
my eyes are drawn into the emptiness of the sea
my thoughts are seductive to suicide bliss for the afterlife 
my lips feed upon the negative taken the poison of my existence 
my ears are deaf with the bullshit of my own confidence
my hands can no longer create what i believe in anymore
ghost writer recreating my horrors of my depression

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Love Bombs 2
Love is a explosive high seeping through my veins
Soaring me upon its will and letting me land in its flame
Valentines has come again to remind me of my lonely apartment
Alone drinking hard liquor and sweet echos of porn in the background

X & O are embedded in my wrist bleeding the true color of my rose
Chocolate kisses are smeared upon my lips and fingertips

Cupid has tease me again playing its role to my temptations
Adele pleading me to set fire to this rain and take it all with my love

Heartbroken ill be for tonight upon my throne
Just another day for a sad writer who words were never enough for him


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The View
you've scratched my heart like a lottery ticket

revealing the pitfalls of our relationship
you've came short again thrown me 
within in the plies of your greed
for fast ass and bottom feeders of lust

you've sink yourself into illusions 
kept your pockets dry for the next victim
selling yourself for new bait feasting
on desires and youthful flesh

you've bend the bracket for lonely women
hiding yourself as a predator in there arms
victory has fallen within her gaze
rotten core of temptation and 
your pick up lines 

you've hunger for commitment 
but only receive late night text and 
long nights in a stranger bed
pulling yourself into reality
sex isn't anything without love  

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Mature content
Initiation :iconasianblade:asianblade 7 5
All Tied Up
my heart keeps binding into rubber bands
stretching and bursting to bitter dust
sweets coated lips bury's my thoughts
drowning myself in the arms of a married man
deceitful desires that conquer my will to please
lustful in a bliss that i can't resist to leave
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Mature content
ain't it pretty :iconasianblade:asianblade 6 2
Mellow Mindstate
crawling into the abyss sinking myself within its twilight
glowing its mystical kiss through my soul the enchanting koi
i become swimming in my beloved realm discovering how beautiful
i can heal beneath the deep pond i never want to escape this exotic bliss
these photos of you fades withing my touch bleeding black and white
destroying the colors of my heart all i got is nothing without you
just memories in a time capsule each remedy showing views of your face
cupping my hand into yours ruling our world with pride but i fell as a
casualty to heartbreak gasping for your pulse against my cold lips
you wrap your tongue around my collarbone digging your fingers
in my skin peeling the shells of my bones ripping into my heart
to suck on the crimson fetus devouring all you can of a parasite
you've became the maggot i adore
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Broken Fingertips
she remembers the whispers of 'i love you's from passing figures of sympathy;
-[they weren't worth her mind]
or so she thought;
with ink stained limbs and spider-cracking time;
when clocks were irrelevant
-[and people pointless];
poetry was still the only thing she could hold
in calloused hands and broken fingertips;
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They Don't Know
They think that they know.
But they don't fight these battles.
They have a place to go.
They don't live among these shadows.
They say that they care.
As I sit here alone.
When they're never even there.
As I'm shifting in my bones.
They say that we want attention.
Though all I want is someone,
Who gives me compassion,
Doesn't make me want to run.
Because every day it is the same.
They won't let us rise.
They beat us and they call us names.
While society ignores our cries.
They'll tear us apart.
And all they do is sit and stare.
Does nobody have a heart?
To ever think, ever care?
Do they ever think of us?
And all we go through.
We have no to trust.
We don't know what to do.
We grew up by ourselves.
There was no one else around.
No books on the shelves.
Not a single drop of sound.
Only the distant cries,
Of the ones who have no trust.
The ones that society tries to hide.
The ones that are just like us.
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i blame the rain,
for the tears in my eyes,
even a grown man,
breaks down and cries,
between broken truths,
and whispered lies,
what a happy mask,
that becomes your guise,
no matter the burden,
no matter the size,
pick yourself up,
for its time to rise,
its time for us all,
to take to the skies,
to rescue our princess,
and capture our prize
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Sometimes I feel heavy
Not adrift,
No, I could never float with all this pressure
Sometimes my shoulders ache
from trying to keep my head above
the constant swell of waves
Sometimes I grit my teeth
when I feel myself careening toward that edge I didn't see
or anticipate
Sometimes I look into that dark hole
and wonder what it would be like-
to let myself sink down deep
and not even try to swim.
Is it dark and quiet,
like a peacefull, dreamless sleep?
But I don’t dwell on that,
because how would I carry you out-
if you needed me to?
How could I embrace such darkness,
and ignore our beautiful Lilli lighthouse?
Sometimes I have to remind myself
that it's okay to drift
close to shore,
that it's okay to dip my toes into the midnight waves
because her light will always guide me home.
Sometimes…I think that maybe I am adrift too…
My arms so tired from the swim,
feeling helpless and lost in the fog,
needing your voice to guide me
and your hands to help me up.
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